Metaphysical – Revealing Light Tarot

The long arc…

Hello readers and viewers, it’s been a little while since I last wrote to you. I have been busy promoting my new book and juggling a serious arthritic flare in my hands that has dislocated the thumb CMC joint on my left hand, and because I am using my right hand more it has become quite painful too. Needless to say, I have been neglecting what I love to do the most which is writing. Let’s catch up.

So much has happened since my last entry. We have been subjected to a daily barrage of chaos, destruction and unconstitutional action from the new president Donald Trump. For months I refused to name him calling him 45 or 47, or under my breath something infinitely worse. However it struck me that not using his name, at least in my case, meant that I was reticent to speak his name and I did not want to give over to any form of fear or even allowing him to escape responsibility for the destruction he is wreaking not just on the US but on the world. In Trump we see lawlessness, vindictiveness and retribution, and most obviously heartlessness.

Tens and possibly hundreds of thousands of civil servants are without jobs in less than a month since Trump took office, whether they come from red states, blue states or purple states…good and talented workers have been thrown on the scrap heap, ridiculed and belittled, mocked and marked and callously booted out of the door they once walked through with pride as those with the privilege of serving the public. Billionaire and clown Elon Musk, behind sunglasses and a black cap carried a chainsaw onto the CPAC stage recently to highlight how he has taken a chainsaw to the government and its staff. It reminded me of national wrestling championships crossed with the Roman Colosseum. Real people, real families and communities are suffering as a result of his actions, yet he continues to mock them after he has destroyed them.

Trump and Musk, and Musk’s band of juvenile techno’s have been accused of breaching the privacy of Americans, potentially accessing their Social Security data and their financial and banking data too. All of this is just the tip of the iceberg when it comes to the wrecking ball Trump, Musk and JD Vance, have taken to American society, government and way of life. And what is the end game? As a psychic and intuitive I have long felt the object of all of this is pure and utter greed and a lust for power and retribution.

Such are their travesties that those who voted for him, aside from his Maga base, are regretting their vote. A little late don’t you think? Sometimes karma arrives in real time and when it does, it leaves us in no doubt what our mistakes have been.

Internationally, the damage is equally as bad. Trump has taken that same wrecking ball and swung it high against America’s allies. He has all but pulled the US out of NATO, extorted Ukraine for its rare earth minerals and other resources, and upset Canada, Mexico, Greenland, Denmark, Panama and Colombia, all in the space of weeks. Germany France and the UK ready to string him and his sycophantic government from the nearest tree after the way in which he has sold out Europe for a partnership with dictator and war criminal Vladimir Putin. My own country, Australia, has been mercifully spared thus far, however I wonder for how long before it is our turn, and in what way he is going to try and extort us. My guess is that he will want even more military bases on our sovereign soil.

Heartbreakingly, he has told Ukraine to either accept a deal for America to take 50% of Ukraine’s rare earth minerals and other resources in perpetuity or he will turn off Starlink internet in their country. This would leave Ukraine unable to defend itself and unable to launch or repel drone and other attacks. Of course, a threat to turn off Starlink with the full backing of Starlink owner Elon Musk, should be a warning to other countries to find another satellite provider or be at the mercy of Trump/Musk’s blackmail in the future.

Now we are seeing fully the corruption greed, and cruelty of the highest order.

Yet for all the worry and anxiety we are labouring under, there is much to take heart in. Weekly street protests across all US states, unified legal action amongst civil rights groups and strong pushback from the state governments against Trump and Musk, show that we are with power and the freedom to exercise it.

A few weeks ago I caught up with Erika Robinson from In the Company of Cards, to talk about my new book Revealing Light – How Cancer Illuminated My Divine Blueprint. We spoke about how I took back my power when I was at my lowest ebb after my cancer diagnosis. I know only too well what it’s like to be at the bottom of that dark well, fearful and with no idea how to climb out. However, as soon as we look up, not down, and as soon as we find our courage and resolve, the light flows to us, illuminating our pathway upwards and onwards.

No matter how tough the going gets in the US and in the world, I choose to put my confidence into each and every one of us who stands strongly against the tyrants and cowards, and for a free, fair and prosperous future in which peace is our cornerstone.

My new book Revealing Light – How Cancer Illuminated My Divine Blueprint is distributed far and wide, on Amazon and beyond. In some places it is on backorder due to the first print run selling out, however you can find it still available here:

Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/Revealing-Light-Cancer-Illuminated-Blueprint/dp/1803417307/ref=tmm_pap_swatch_0

Abe Books: https://www.abebooks.com/products/isbn/9781803417301?ref_=pd_detail-1-b_p

Bookshop.org: https://uk.bookshop.org/p/books/revealing-light-how-cancer-illuminated-my-divine-blueprint/7657531

Seven years & one book later

Today I celebrated a milestone with the arrival of my author copies of my new book Revealing Light – How Cancer Illuminated My Divine Blueprint. It took seven years to complete due to the death of my beloved sister Jane who had the same cancer in the same place only at a later stage than me. When she passed I developed writer’s block and survivor’s guilt too. The book is a chronicle of my path towards enlightenment and discovery of latent clairvoyant and psychic abilities. I wrote the following feature article for my publishers and today I would like to share it with you as a way of understanding the rich spiritual insights that can follow loss and grief, and recovery. Thank you.

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LIFE CHANGING CANCER DIAGNOSIS REVEALS HIDDEN PSYCHIC LIFE PATH

It’s the little things we notice when the biggest things are happening to us…and so begins YouTube psychic-astrologer and author Maryann Weston’s first thoughts when diagnosed with cancer.

“I remember the paintings in the specialist doctor’s office. There was a huge one of him playing a grand piano with his wife. How odd, I thought, that something so grandiose should be in a room where people are waiting for medical procedures, and so preoccupied with what those tests might reveal.”

It was important to externalise and not internalise when a diagnosis as shocking as cancer is delivered, she recalled. “It’s like a gut-punch with all the air being sucked out of your body. It helped to notice the minute details around me; a little like counting the lines in a pavement on the way to some terrible event, just to keep yourself grounded.”

These are a few of the early memories Maryann recalls in her memoir Revealing Light – How Cancer Illuminated My Divine Blueprint.

A spiritual odyssey, Revealing Light: How Cancer Illuminated My Divine Blueprint tells the story of its author’s psychological and spiritual evolution, from confronting her mortality with a deadly illness to creating a community of like-minded people.

There are plenty of poignant moments in her book, from her husband picking small pink flowers for her on the way back from the daily three-hour drive for radiation and chemo treatment to the long wait for major surgery – a surgery that would change her life forever.

“Nothing prepares you for this,” she said. “You think if I just do the hard yards, get through painful treatment then the reward is that I will be able to go back to my old life. Well, I guess the universe had other plans for me because I didn’t return to that life. In a way, I began a new one.”

It was the strong and ever-present spiritual signs that began to unlock the dormant psychic abilities Maryann had experienced since childhood…clairvoyance and clairaudience particularly, and mediumship too.

Once a journalist, editor and then a senior government policy and communications officer, Maryann didn’t return to that work, instead she began a spiritual podcast on YouTube, later growing these podcasts across other social media channels.

Today her Revealing Light YouTube channel attracts around 125,000 subscribers and she is busy working as a spiritual communicator, intuitive and counsellor.

“I didn’t forget my journalism, research or counselling skills, I just took them with me as I began working across spiritual dimensions,” she said.

“It became very clear to me that I wasn’t supposed to go back to my old life at all. I believe that life is about service to others, and I’ve always believed that helping someone else is a high calling, and I did that throughout my career. Now, I get to reach hundreds of thousands of people each week and that’s an honour and privilege for me.”

Revealing Light – How Cancer Illuminated My Divine Blueprint covers the years from Maryann’s cancer diagnosis until the present. The reader can walk alongside Maryann throughout radiation, chemo treatment and two surgeries, recovery and long healing, through the many spiritual experiences and connections, to the present-day, honing and refining extraordinary psychic and divination talents.

Maryann details some of her earliest spiritual affirmations in her book.

“When I was diagnosed, I began to see white feathers everywhere. My research into spirituality — spiritual guides, told me that when you were going through a tough time, or in need of protection or divine help, then a white feather signifies that you are, indeed, being watched over.

“They’re everywhere,” I said to my somewhat, doubting husband.

“Well, of course they are. There are white cockatoos everywhere this year,” he countered.

“But they’re always in my path,” I persevered.

“Because you are looking for them.”

“I’m not…”

“You are.”

And so, the skepticism went, but I knew as sure as faith steers you “miraculously” in the right direction sometimes, that the numerous white feathers were for me. One even turned up right in front of my chair, inside my house.

My meditation teacher called. “I just wanted to let you know that I have something for you.”

“Oh, okay. What do you have?”

“I was collecting the mail, and I had a thought about you and your sister and then, as I turned to go inside, there was white feather right in front of me. I nearly stepped on it. I knew it was for you and it’s here when you want to collect it.”

When I went to Sydney for an appointment with my surgeon, there were four white feathers in front of my steps as I walked down the street. Countless, and constantly, recurring examples of divine help. As I said, they were everywhere.

Still my husband remained skeptical until the day we were driving along the highway enroute to my Sydney appointment with the radiation machine [and arguing about whether white feathers were a phenomenon or not]. Out of the air, or on a breeze, came a white feather, directly in my path to meet our car which was traveling at 110kph. It sailed right through the air to me and hit the front window.

“Wow, did you see that feather?”

He nodded, thoughtful.

“It’s like in the Forrest Gump movie,” I said. “I wonder where these white feathers will take me?”

He smiled, still not conceding his skepticism but I knew somewhere he was thinking about the meaning behind coincidence.”

This new hybrid-type, self-help and holistic healing book, that straddles both cancer treatment and survivorship, and burgeoning psychic abilities, offers the reader more than a glimpse into the human condition as well as the evolution of the soul.

At the time of Maryann’s cancer diagnosis and treatment, her beloved sister and best friend, Jane, was also undergoing the exact treatment for the same cancer in the same place only at a later stage. Sadly, Jane passed away around the same time as Maryann was given the ‘all clear’, No Evidence of Disease.

“The most significant thing I must tell you, readers, is about the year my beautiful sister Jane left us. You will have heard her gentle and wise voice throughout these pages. I stopped writing this when she died. For years, I could not revisit the pages here knowing that I had survived, and she didn’t…”

However Maryann did begin living a new life again, negotiating painful survivor’s guilt and using her clairvoyance and divination skills on her multiple spiritual platforms…and eventually completing her book.

“One of my biggest cheerleaders at the beginning of my new life post-cancer, was my sister Jane. A farmer’s wife, this wasn’t her comfort zone, but she encouraged me to keep going in the early days, often standing at the door while I channeled my messages to an early YouTube audience. If any of my extended family and friends were judgmental, she soon set them straight. I was very grateful for her faith in me when everyone else was wondering “what on earth has happened to Maryann?”

I guess that is what I miss; however, as my platforms have grown, my own viewers and supporters help to fill that void of support and the validation of purpose and value. Your truest supporters seldom question your value; my sister Jane never underestimated what I was doing spiritually, nor why. I guess she knew me very well.

I am grateful for Jane’s faith in me, and for the loyalty of my viewers.”

Revealing Light – How Cancer Illuminated My Divine Blueprint is an inspiring book, packed with insight and information, revelation and spiritual connection. You will find chapters especially devoted to astrology during her illness, and a perceptive examination of the Tarot’s ‘Fool’s Journey’ through the major arcana as it relates to health, healing and self-nurturing.

The final section of the book will appeal to readers who are interested in channeling. Maryann uses her mediumship abilities to connect with Nostradamus, Dr Sigmund Freud and the Sleeping Prophet Edgar Cayce, the late actor and comedian Robin Williams, and her spirit guides. All channelings are done through the lens of physical, mental and spiritual health.

“I channeled the famous sixteenth-century French seer, physician, apothecary and astrologer, Nostradamus, on January 20, 2019, after a walk at a nearby golf course led me to a Rose Garden populated with the deepest of red/crimson flowers. I reached down and plucked a petal and rubbed it between my fingers. It left an oily residue.

Around this time a man resembling Nostradamus came through, his facial outline and features imprinted on my third eye as I woke in the mornings. A fleeting view of him as I drifted off to sleep in the evenings. A knowing, that he had stepped forward and, importantly, had something to say. As I do with all my channelings, I let the energetic vibration of Nostradamus permeate over weeks, while I looked for signs and confirmations. The rose petal, as it turned out, was a valid sign that Nostradamus had given me, as you will read in the following transcript. This channeling was before the storming of the [US] Congress on January 6, 2020, and the outbreak of the global Covid pandemic in 2020.”

Revealing Light – How Cancer Illuminated My Divine Blueprint is published on 28^th January 2025. You can find out more, including where to order and/or buy it by visiting publisher Collective Ink https://www.collectiveinkbooks.com/o-books/our-books/revealing-light-cancer-illuminated-divine-blueprint

A spiritual evolution

When I was diagnosed with cancer in 2015 my world flipped upside-down. I went from being immersed in the day to day opportunities and challenges of life…family, career, friends…to having to contemplate my mortality. The view of my potential end seemed far too close and so my reality shifted to fighting a battle to survive. It wasn’t just altering course – get sick, recover, resume, it was a seismic shift that completely changed my life.

Anyone who has had cancer knows the uphill battle we fight from the moment of diagnosis and through the long months, and years of treatment. My final surgery was in 2017. Radiation, chemo, major abdominal surgery, infections, more surgery…and then adjusting to life afterwards. Nothing was or is the same. Yet life is deeper, sweeter and layered with more meaning now.

When I was diagnosed I did the only thing I know. I had been a professional writer since graduating from university, and so I wrote about my cancer years with such motivation. It made sense to record the biggest challenge in my life to date. It wasn’t until I lost my sister Jane to the same (familial) cancer that I had, in the same place, but at a later stage, that I put my pen down. I survived and she didn’t. We had gone through the same treatment and I had made it through…she had fought courageously for six long years. She was there for me every step of the way, and I for her…and then she was gone. It would be three years before I had the heart to write again.

Early last year, I began to look at my unfinished manuscript “Revealing Light”. So much had happened since 2015. I had fully immersed myself in my clairvoyant and psychic abilities which had only grown stronger with the cancer. I had grieved for my sister, and for myself…I didn’t want our story…the cancer story, to be lost and so I began to write again, documenting my spiritual evolution post cancer. I delved into survivor’s guilt, the astrology at the time of my illness and looked at the tarot through a physical and spiritual lens. I wrote about connecting with nature and animals, and the richness of living spiritually. Whatever physical abilities that had been impaired as a result of cancer, my spiritual abilities had soared and my writing documented the process from its beginning onwards.

After finally finishing the manuscript…it took me seven years…I sent it off to UK publishers Collective Ink and was offered a traditional publishing contract. The book, Revealing Light – How cancer illuminated my divine blueprint will be published in January 2025. Pre orders are now available through Amazon UK who distribute worldwide and I will be talking more about how cancer reawakened my dormant psychic and clairvoyant abilities over the coming months. More information on the book is here: https://www.collectiveinkbooks.com/o-books/our-books/revealing-light-cancer-illuminated-divine-blueprint

This book is about the gifts received through adversity, about learning in the fiery waters of a spiritual baptism that many cancer warriors experience and how crisis can shatter existence to reveal divine purpose in life – a blueprint we agreed to before we were born.”
Maryann, Revealing Light…

Joy and spiritual evolution

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I had intended on posting a New Year’s message, a bright chit chat post about intentions, hope and self responsibility…however I held off due to a pneumonia-like illness I developed between Christmas and the new year which kept me struggling physically and mentally until the last few days.

I am a lifelong asthmatic and the last 6 months have been rough as my preventative inhaler of 30 years stopped working. I’ve been on and off antibiotics and prednisone since last July, and a raft of different inhalers which all made the situation worse. I had given up on easy solutions and was waiting for a referral to the respiratory specialist. For those who don’t know my history, harsh cancer treatment in 2015…is there any other sort…worsened my auto immune issues. This has meant a necessary and dogged focus on my health and boosting my immunity since then.

I digress. Back to the inhaler problem. When I’m presented with a health challenge I rarely give up. I research and use my intuition to solve the issue. Sometimes I am successful. After seemingly being without options, I flagged one last dual inhaler they said would not work, so why try it? I persisted and got the script, albeit from a reluctant and cynical GP. It turned out to be the right move. This particular inhaler worked and was the least draconian intervention. I had known that it would. I guess the message is: it’s your body and your health. Use your voice, inquire and ask questions and make your views known. Doctors are not God-like. They are human beings with all our flaws and strengths, and expertise. They are also overworked and the medical system often, imperfect.

It pays to be your own health advocate.

Along with health issues, I have been contemplating the meaning of joy – not some fantastical, whimsical and passing ‘happy feeling’…rather I’ve been thinking about deep and abiding joy. Often after tough times (and let’s face it a lot do struggle around Christmas and New Year), we contemplate our circumstances with honesty and I have found myself realising that it has been ‘a minute’ since I was last ‘joyful’. Whether it’s the state of our troubled world, or personal circumstances, I remember now, that feeling of deep joy that goes with spiritual contentment and I know that is not how I currently feel. Rather than external events and people providing passing happy times, the deep joy of contentment is unwavering, consistent and not easily won.

This deep feeling of joy, takes real inner focus and meeting your own needs. It also takes self value and reflection. To reconnect with the deep joy which reaches all the way into your spirit, firstly takes awareness and acknowledgment of its absence.

I can hear you asking: well how do you get it back? You understand that you’ve only ever needed ‘you’. So start by getting back in touch with the essence of who ‘you’ are, and when you find that, value and nurture ‘you’. Leave the rest to Spirit. Once the process has begun, the right people and events will meet you.

Take that step. Deep joy and meaning await you on your journey.

A handful of sunflower seeds

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As I sit listening to the rain on my corrugated iron roof, I have one eye on my Washington Post subscription feeding through my email. On the one hand the rain…the wind howling a little at the corner of our home and the late afternoon sun on green grass, are worlds away from the tragedy unfolding in the Middle East. I am waiting for what my intuitive senses tell me is coming; an acceleration of the violence and bloodshed and the catastrophe unfolding in Gaza right now.

As I write this…from the safety of my Australian home and the gentle sound of that rain on my roof…I cannot comprehend the suffering that is occurring right now.

So much of the world is like a tinder box. Do I need to say one spark and the fire will ignite and grow? I don’t think so. We all know what’s at stake. We feel it and sense it.

In February 2022 we watched helplessly while Russian soldiers and tanks crossed the border into sovereign Ukraine, intent on a blitzkrieg and toppling its young democratically elected leader. The Russian Emperor proxy Vladimir Putin had longed dreamed of reuniting the former Soviet Union borders under his authoritarian reign. We then witnessed the courage and sacrifice of the Ukrainians, hundreds of thousands of lives lost, Ukrainian and Russian, on the fields where once sunflowers and blades of wheat grew.

I still have the t-shirt sold in a Ukrainian fundraiser, of an old woman standing in front of the Russian tank in defiance, hand outstretched and giving the enemy soldier a handful of sunflower seeds. “Put them in your pockets, so at least sunflowers will grow when you all lie down here.”

A simple scene highlighting the pointlessness of war, death and destruction.

Unfolding now is yet another tragedy which the world of humanity could not stop. A terrorist organisation trained by the Russian Wagner mercenaries (most likely somewhere in Africa) and financed by Iran, with weapons from Russia, stormed into Israel and viciously killed hundreds of Israeli’s, taking some of them hostage in Gaza, holding both the innocent Palestinian families and the Israeli’s hostage in what some describe as an ‘open air prison’…the Gaza Strip.

Bombs are dropped indiscriminately now on both sides, no hope for a peaceful settlement, and nearby Arab countries like Egypt, Iran and Lebanon one step away from joining the fray. US warships are anchored at the ready, as a deterrent against escalation.

In the US, the opposition party is actively discrediting the current President of their country, spouting Russian talking points on Ukraine, and its leader, the former US president Donald Trump talking up the terrorists. One chamber of its Congress is paralysed, held hostage by the extreme wing of the GOP, unable to function. The US at a time when the world is on the edge of the precipice, is legislatively neutered and leaderless.

What hope have we got when the world has gone so terribly wrong?

In times like this, when the darkness obscures almost all of the light, I focus on hope. I focus on what I know…that the world is changing and that old myths, tokenisms and narratives that suit the very people that led us into the darkness, are being exposed.

I focus on the light of truth and I know that truth-telling leads to justice, and justice leads us to balance. Perhaps this balance is the gift from God, to peel away the layers of detritus to reveal the truth because when we have truth, we have clarity, decision-making and a way forward.

I made this video a few months ago, using the Angel Tarot. It is relevant to this blog and for this time. I hope it provides some comfort.

Understanding the energy ecosystem

Are ‘demons’ and ‘angels’ real. It’s not what you think…and yes I believe in higher energy beings (angels) and negative, lower energies however the interpretation and the ‘life’ you give these energies resides within yourself.

My latest podcast began with a nightmare I had last week. Long black hands extending out of nowhere, seemingly, had firmly affixed themselves to my neck and were strangling the life out of me. I tried to move in this nightmarish state and couldn’t. Some people describe this as sleep paralysis. Something registered in some part of my being and in a split second, I fired white light from my own hands and said, “YOU ARE THE LIGHT”. Almost immediately, the black hands let go and I was free.

I’m sure Jung would unpick this nightmare and Dr Sigmund Freud would have a field day with it, as we say in Australia. Field days are agricultural fairs where all manner of agricultural equipment, food and people are located and congregated. It has always been a wonderful day out for rural families here. Anyway, back to the point of the nightmare, it revealed a couple of important things…firstly, I had control over what was attempting to strangle me…I was more powerful than I gave myself credit for…and secondly, I did not say I, I said ‘you are the light’.

Perhaps that’s the lesson. When we have good intentions for another in our hearts, no matter what, the destructiveness stops…and we are free.

My podcast is available on Apple, Spotify, Podbean and other platforms, and you can listen here: https://www.podbean.com/ew/pb-cm5hi-1449223

If you would prefer to watch the episode on my Youtube podcast channel @RandomSagePodcast you can do so here:

Dream space

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Hello readers, viewers and listeners, I’ve just published a new episode of Random Sage which looks at dreams…why do we have them and what can they tell us?
Everyone dreams, whether they are conscious of it or not. Dreams can be prophetic, they can allow us to travel to the astral realms, and they can present a ‘psychological montage’ to us which helps us figure out everyday problems. Similarly, nightmares help us confront our fears. In this episode, I examine dreaming and ask the question: What do our dreams tell us?
You can listen on Podbean, on Apple, Spotify, I❤️Radio and many more podcast platforms. https://revealinglighttarot.podbean.com/e/what-do-our-dreams-tell-us/
For those who prefer to listen to podcasts on YouTube, I’ve set up a podcast channel on YouTube and the link is below.

Remembering

Years ago when I was travelling back and forth on my daily commute to Canberra, past the infamous and mysterious Lake George, I had what can only be described as an ‘out of body’ experience. As I drove past the steep craigs and thick Australian bush, I ‘heard’ or felt the sound of a deep beat. It wasn’t perceived with my ears…rather my whole being. It was what I can only describe as the sound of the earth itself.

Lake George is an anomaly in Australia. It doesn’t have a known water source and is an endorheic lake (a drainage basin that retains water and has no outflow). Water seems to appear during the rainy season and recede during the successive hot weeks and months. I’ve seen it almost bone dry, and full enough to lap the edges of the highway. This day was clear with blue skies and sun. It felt like I was driving into a haze with a pulsating, ever-present, earthly beat. I shook myself out of this state, as I was driving. A little unnerved, I continued on my way to work. I never forgot that day.

Around that time, I had a dream I will also never forget. I was at Lake George and alongside me walked an Aboriginal Elder. He showed me a landscape that was destroyed, but in the distance, beyond the blackened and broken trees, was the lake. He pointed me to it, and I understood I was to cross that barren ground by myself and that, one day, I’d reach the water. I became aware that there would be trials to undergo, but that reaching the water was the goal.

As with most things that come from these rich esoteric realms, it takes time, and experience, to understand their meaning. After that dream and my experience at Lake George, I lost my dad, my mum and my sister, and I went through cancer surgery, chemotherapy and radiation – all within years of one another. Life dealt me huge blows and the opportunity to grasp hope and have faith that the lessons would reveal to me a sanctuary of understanding and wisdom.

We’ve all been in this place, and we’ve all had to climb out of it, stronger than before.

I wrote about my dream at the time. I know that place the Aboriginal Elder pointed to was a metaphor for coming back to my heart, changed yet renewed. In hindsight, the dream and the subsequent poem were prophetic.

Water giver

One day I remembered, what I was supposed to do.
I thought of the ground I had walked on,

This earth; this lifetime,
Across green fields, and dust, and fire,
Always towards the lake’s edge. To the water.

I walked beside a guide on my journey.
I didn’t look into his eyes; I feared that.

This Shaman.
I remember he pointed to the water,
A million miles away, across alien landscape,
Barren and destroyed by…I’m not sure.

I only knew I had to cross that wasteland,
With its dead trees and murky shadows,
To get to the water, for whatever his reason,
For pointing to it, as if I knew.

I remember now that water nourishes,
And quenches thirst.

It carries things away,
Like words and thoughts, and experiences,

And leaves something new, and clear.

I crossed that barren land…like he said,
To find myself, and now to write these words.

Chiron, the wounded healer

On January 4th, the moon sextiled (harmony and flow) Chiron. The Sun was also squaring (conflicting) Chiron. Depending on when you’re reading this there will be different astrological movements and patterns and aspects, but I want to talk a little bit more about Chiron because I believe the placement of Chiron in our astrology charts tells us about one of the most important aspects of our life’s purpose…healing.

For those who know nothing about astrology, Chiron is the wounded healer. Chiron was named after the centaur in Greek mythology who was a healer and teacher however could not heal himself. We all have Chiron in our charts and wherever this placement is, there you will find an indication of your own greatest healing powers, and also the source of your own wound. In my natal chart, Chiron is in Pisces (empathetic, mystical, intuition, psychic senses) in my 9th house which is the home of Sagittarius (learning, higher knowledge, intellectual and spiritual adventurers) which explains why I ended up using my psychic abilities in a career which metamorphosed post cancer journey. I encourage you to find a good astrologer and have a look at where your Chiron is placed in your natal chart; what sign and house because it will tell you a lot about the kind of patterns that reoccur and are present in your lifetime. For me, Chiron in Pisces in my 9th house tells me that both intuition and analysis will guide me. Equally, I can recall many, many times in my life where my I didn’t trust my intuition even though it screamed at me for attention. I wasn’t confident enough in my own strength back then even though I knew with every fibre of my being that something beyond (or within) myself was pulling me in such a way that I couldn’t ignore it. I just couldn’t necessarily explain that to anyone else in logical ways. As I navigated my way through cancer diagnosis and treatment in 2015, I drew on my intuition and quest for knowledge to devise a map of how I would travel though tough treatment to reach a destination of ’cured’. Sometimes I used logic; other times intuition. It was a complete inner and outer process to heal and learn. After cancer and confronting my mortality, I had learned to trust my intuition.

So here is what I want you to do today…find out where your Chiron is and address the wound because you shouldn’t need to go through a lifetime not understanding who you are, what your blueprint is in this lifetime, and how you can find your strength by understanding your weakness, your Achilles heel. Most importantly, understanding and becoming confident in your ability to connect deeply with others through your own experiences with your wound patterns, because Chiron shows us where we have healing powers as a result of our own deep spiritual wounds.

Sometimes you can best connect with your intuition by asking what is it that I need to know today and by feeling into that intuition and to that emotion hunch. That’s when you can apply your logic to it. I know the two don’t necessarily fit, but if your logical, conscious mind is telling you to do one thing and your intuition is screaming at you to do another, what are you going to do? You are not going to sabotage yourself by ignoring that huge voice in your head, and in your heart, because you fear whatever the warning is your intuition is allowing you to see in that present moment. If you ignore that screaming voice within, you simply sabotage yourself.

We don’t need to live constantly and permanently with our ’wound patterns’. Make a choice to take advantage of, and receive, the gift that spirit has given you…the gift of healing. That is your birth right.

Some of our most powerful intuitions will arise with matters of the heart. I believe that intuition…psychic senses, were given to us as a highly evolved navigational tool to move through this lifetime. It is the one thing that can lead to our independence because it is the highly evolved part of us; that spiritual know how and connection, that most of us aren’t even aware is there.

What do I mean by ‘living a spiritual life’? Well, this is living life with a reliable, stable, resilient, active, dialogue with the inner self. It is that connects us with spirit, with past over love ones, with the upper world, and with realms that we can’t see, touch, feel and hear with our outer self if we are leaving a mundane, earthly existence. We weren’t meant to be so limited. Instead, we were always destined to learn how to develop our inner and psychic senses.

Our fears stop us from living that divine, spiritual connection. It’s a connection that gives us so much more. It allows us to navigate tough times, and to manifest as much abundance as we are capable of in that present moment. It’s also our fear of loss of control; loss of that concreteness that is so associated with mundane living, that stops us from fully embracing the spiritual beings that we are and that we are meant to be.

At any given moment in time, we can embark on a magical journey of living spiritually. We can step forward into that journey without knowing where we are putting our feet, because intuition is our guide. Learning to hone that intuition, to fully utilise that intuition, is what will likely guarantee our steps forward in an unknown territory.

Today I urge everybody who might be reading this regardless of the time, the place, the year, to take that leap of faith…to see the world through the child’s eyes and navigate their way forward into a spiritual life. You will not find instability, rather, stability. Being your own spiritual guide will ensure you have everything you need, including the healing of any ancestral patterns and you will have your opportunity to understand your vulnerabilities, the lessons that you need to learn, and that is when you start to evolve into a spiritual being; that is when you start to live a spiritual life.

Channeling occultist Aleister Crowley

As a clairvoyant and medium, I have channeled many people on my Youtube channel, Revealing Light Tarot, Astrology and Spirituality. They have been people who have achieved great things in their lifetimes and have struggled, as we do…the channelings more powerful for their humanity, their contribution and their flaws.

It was with some apprehension that I channeled a request, not something I usually do, for occultist Aleister Crowley. Like everyone else, I had bought into the hype surrounding his name…and to be fair, Crowley himself encouraged this. I’m not sure what made me persevere and do the channeling…call it curiosity and something more…a vague suspicion there was more to Crowley than met the eye, beyond the hysteria and fear he seemed to engender.

I did the barest research before the channeling. Date of birth and death, a brief description of his life…his parents and the tarot deck which he co-created with Lady Freida Harris – the Thoth Tarot.

I went into the reading without too much awareness; and I emerged after my channeling with a new understanding of his intellect and contribution to spiritualism. I’ll let the channeling speak for itself.

Happy Halloween and Sahmein readers. There are mysteries and magic that remain hidden in the darkness of ignorance, just waiting for some light.