Category: spirituality

Remembering

Years ago when I was travelling back and forth on my daily commute to Canberra, past the infamous and mysterious Lake George, I had what can only be described as an ‘out of body’ experience. As I drove past the steep craigs and thick Australian bush, I ‘heard’ or felt the sound of a deep beat. It wasn’t perceived with my ears…rather my whole being. It was what I can only describe as the sound of the earth itself.

Lake George is an anomaly in Australia. It doesn’t have a known water source and is an endorheic lake (a drainage basin that retains water and has no outflow). Water seems to appear during the rainy season and recede during the successive hot weeks and months. I’ve seen it almost bone dry, and full enough to lap the edges of the highway. This day was clear with blue skies and sun. It felt like I was driving into a haze with a pulsating, ever-present, earthly beat. I shook myself out of this state, as I was driving. A little unnerved, I continued on my way to work. I never forgot that day.

Around that time, I had a dream I will also never forget. I was at Lake George and alongside me walked an Aboriginal Elder. He showed me a landscape that was destroyed, but in the distance, beyond the blackened and broken trees, was the lake. He pointed me to it, and I understood I was to cross that barren ground by myself and that, one day, I’d reach the water. I became aware that there would be trials to undergo, but that reaching the water was the goal.

As with most things that come from these rich esoteric realms, it takes time, and experience, to understand their meaning. After that dream and my experience at Lake George, I lost my dad, my mum and my sister, and I went through cancer surgery, chemotherapy and radiation – all within years of one another. Life dealt me huge blows and the opportunity to grasp hope and have faith that the lessons would reveal to me a sanctuary of understanding and wisdom.

We’ve all been in this place, and we’ve all had to climb out of it, stronger than before.

I wrote about my dream at the time. I know that place the Aboriginal Elder pointed to was a metaphor for coming back to my heart, changed yet renewed. In hindsight, the dream and the subsequent poem were prophetic.

Water giver

One day I remembered, what I was supposed to do.
I thought of the ground I had walked on,

This earth; this lifetime,
Across green fields, and dust, and fire,
Always towards the lake’s edge. To the water.

I walked beside a guide on my journey.
I didn’t look into his eyes; I feared that.

This Shaman.
I remember he pointed to the water,
A million miles away, across alien landscape,
Barren and destroyed by…I’m not sure.

I only knew I had to cross that wasteland,
With its dead trees and murky shadows,
To get to the water, for whatever his reason,
For pointing to it, as if I knew.

I remember now that water nourishes,
And quenches thirst. 

It carries things away,
Like words and thoughts, and experiences,

And leaves something new, and clear.

I crossed that barren land…like he said,
To find myself, and now to write these words.

Sunsets & memories

I was born in the flurry of an emergency. My mother who had pre-eclampsia when carrying me, was given Pethadine for the pain of childbirth. It just so happened that she was allergic to that…and so my birth became dramatic. My mum’s memories were hazy, but she did tell me it was very late in the afternoon that I was born. Later on, an astrologer friend did a birth time rectification on my natal chart and established I was born at 6.50pm. Our birthdate and place gives us which planets are in what signs of the zodiac, but a birth time gives us our Ascendant and places those planets in their signs in the zodiac’s Houses. This additional information tells us about the major themes (Houses) we are likely to encounter in our lives, and our Ascendant tells us how we present to the world.

Around 6pm in the summer months…I was born in December in the Australia…the sun is low in the sky. I have always been drawn to sunsets, perhaps because that is when I came into this world. Sunsets mark the end of a day. Metaphorically, they are about cycles drawing to a close.

I always find peace in a sunset. A stillness as activity winds down. I use this time to ride my ebike and I enjoy the gentle rays of the sun and the quietness in nature. As I was riding, literally into the sunset, the other day, I came across a ‘murder’ of crows. About 20-30 of them perched on the huge light pole of the oval I was riding around. All was quiet and I realised they were watching the sunset…and me…from their lofty perch. As I headed for home, they suddenly took flight and flew with me to a nearby tree. The crow is my spiritual totem. I paid my respects to them, and rode home as night fell.

Whether it is riding a bike, or taking a walk, the opportunity to become one with your natural surroundings deepens reflection and allows you to be in the ‘flow’ of the experience. You will never find this consuming media in your lounge room just before a sunset.

Sunsets are a gift.

Chiron, the wounded healer

On January 4th, the moon sextiled (harmony and flow) Chiron. The Sun was also squaring (conflicting) Chiron. Depending on when you’re reading this there will be different astrological movements and patterns and aspects, but I want to talk a little bit more about Chiron because I believe the placement of Chiron in our astrology charts tells us about one of the most important aspects of our life’s purpose…healing.

For those who know nothing about astrology, Chiron is the wounded healer. Chiron was named after the centaur in Greek mythology who was a healer and teacher however could not heal himself. We all have Chiron in our charts and wherever this placement is, there you will find an indication of your own greatest healing powers, and also the source of your own wound. In my natal chart, Chiron is in Pisces (empathetic, mystical, intuition, psychic senses) in my 9th house which is the home of Sagittarius (learning, higher knowledge, intellectual and spiritual adventurers) which explains why I ended up using my psychic abilities in a career which metamorphosed post cancer journey. I encourage you to find a good astrologer and have a look at where your Chiron is placed in your natal chart; what sign and house because it will tell you a lot about the kind of patterns that reoccur and are present in your lifetime. For me, Chiron in Pisces in my 9th house tells me that both intuition and analysis will guide me. Equally, I can recall many, many times in my life where my I didn’t trust my intuition even though it screamed at me for attention. I wasn’t confident enough in my own strength back then even though I knew with every fibre of my being that something beyond (or within) myself was pulling me in such a way that I couldn’t ignore it. I just couldn’t necessarily explain that to anyone else in logical ways. As I navigated my way through cancer diagnosis and treatment in 2015, I drew on my intuition and quest for knowledge to devise a map of how I would travel though tough treatment to reach a destination of ’cured’. Sometimes I used logic; other times intuition. It was a complete inner and outer process to heal and learn. After cancer and confronting my mortality, I had learned to trust my intuition.

So here is what I want you to do today…find out where your Chiron is and address the wound because you shouldn’t need to go through a lifetime not understanding who you are, what your blueprint is in this lifetime, and how you can find your strength by understanding your weakness, your Achilles heel. Most importantly, understanding and becoming confident in your ability to connect deeply with others through your own experiences with your wound patterns, because Chiron shows us where we have healing powers as a result of our own deep spiritual wounds.

Sometimes you can best connect with your intuition by asking what is it that I need to know today and by feeling into that intuition and to that emotion hunch. That’s when you can apply your logic to it. I know the two don’t necessarily fit, but if your logical, conscious mind is telling you to do one thing and your intuition is screaming at you to do another, what are you going to do? You are not going to sabotage yourself by ignoring that huge voice in your head, and in your heart, because you fear whatever the warning is your intuition is allowing you to see in that present moment. If you ignore that screaming voice within, you simply sabotage yourself.

We don’t need to live constantly and permanently with our ’wound patterns’. Make a choice to take advantage of, and receive, the gift that spirit has given you…the gift of healing. That is your birth right.

Some of our most powerful intuitions will arise with matters of the heart. I believe that intuition…psychic senses, were given to us as a highly evolved navigational tool to move through this lifetime. It is the one thing that can lead to our independence because it is the highly evolved part of us; that spiritual know how and connection, that most of us aren’t even aware is there.

What do I mean by ‘living a spiritual life’? Well, this is living life with a reliable, stable, resilient, active, dialogue with the inner self. It is that connects us with spirit, with past over love ones, with the upper world, and with realms that we can’t see, touch, feel and hear with our outer self if we are leaving a mundane, earthly existence. We weren’t meant to be so limited. Instead, we were always destined to learn how to develop our inner and psychic senses.

Our fears stop us from living that divine, spiritual connection. It’s a connection that gives us so much more. It allows us to navigate tough times, and to manifest as much abundance as we are capable of in that present moment. It’s also our fear of loss of control; loss of that concreteness that is so associated with mundane living, that stops us from fully embracing the spiritual beings that we are and that we are meant to be.

At any given moment in time, we can embark on a magical journey of living spiritually. We can step forward into that journey without knowing where we are putting our feet, because intuition is our guide. Learning to hone that intuition, to fully utilise that intuition, is what will likely guarantee our steps forward in an unknown territory.

Today I urge everybody who might be reading this regardless of the time, the place, the year, to take that leap of faith…to see the world through the child’s eyes and navigate their way forward into a spiritual life. You will not find instability, rather, stability. Being your own spiritual guide will ensure you have everything you need, including the healing of any ancestral patterns and you will have your opportunity to understand your vulnerabilities, the lessons that you need to learn, and that is when you start to evolve into a spiritual being; that is when you start to live a spiritual life.

Channeling occultist Aleister Crowley

As a clairvoyant and medium, I have channeled many people on my Youtube channel, Revealing Light Tarot, Astrology and Spirituality. They have been people who have achieved great things in their lifetimes and have struggled, as we do…the channelings more powerful for their humanity, their contribution and their flaws.

It was with some apprehension that I channeled a request, not something I usually do, for occultist Aleister Crowley. Like everyone else, I had bought into the hype surrounding his name…and to be fair, Crowley himself encouraged this. I’m not sure what made me persevere and do the channeling…call it curiosity and something more…a vague suspicion there was more to Crowley than met the eye, beyond the hysteria and fear he seemed to engender.

I did the barest research before the channeling. Date of birth and death, a brief description of his life…his parents and the tarot deck which he co-created with Lady Freida Harris – the Thoth Tarot.

I went into the reading without too much awareness; and I emerged after my channeling with a new understanding of his intellect and contribution to spiritualism. I’ll let the channeling speak for itself.

Happy Halloween and Sahmein readers. There are mysteries and magic that remain hidden in the darkness of ignorance, just waiting for some light.

The art of tarot

I’m not sure how long the idea to hand paint my own tarot deck has been brewing. It’s a bit like when I write…it is there in the back of my mind before the timing is right to bring it forward. In any case, I got serious about this huge undertaking sometime in 2020.

I had always loved art and colour, but my technique was rusty. Where on earth would I start…where I always start, with learning and relearning. I spent over a year in art classes, brushing up on what I remembered from senior school and learning about colour, composition, perspective, blending with acrylics and painting with watercolour and Indian Ink. What a journey it has been…an absolute love despite the daunting task of attempting to hand paint 78 tarot cards.

Most tarot decks are created with imagery and graphic design. There are a few beautiful hand painted decks, and you’ll know them when you see them. The late Poppy Palin’s Everyday Enchantment Tarot is one. When hand painting, there are no shortcuts. Each card is literally a painting. So while it’s challenging, hand painting my tarot is also incredibly meaningful. It is also done from pure creativity, and that process allows for psychic ability to flow. It allows for many pathways and directions and the choices I make in these cards incorporate not only traditional tarot meanings, but a clairvoyance too.

Simply put, hand painting my own tarot deck has been, and is, a labor of love for me that draws together such creativity and spiritual connection that it generates anticipation that is quite unexpected.

The Chariot…the small boat leaves its safe harbour, and while the wind whips up a storm, there is promise in the journey ahead.

Channeling Eva Peron

A few months ago, in the midst of the outrage in America at President Trump’s immigration policies which locked children behind wire fences, in camps, I felt former First Lady of Argentina Eva Peron come forward in one of my readings. I knew she wanted to be heard and so I made time for this channeling. Her profound kindness and genuine love for her people, especially those living in poverty, left an impression on me. Here was someone who was a devout person, who saw inequality, and wanted to be a force for change. And she was…

In this reading, Eva Peron talked about the current situation in the US where, under the direction of its current Trump-led government, children were taken from their parents, and put in camps, behind wire fences that many referred to as ‘cages’. These children come from South America…from countries that perhaps are not dissimilar from Eva Peron’s beloved Argentina, perhaps even from Argentina which would also explain her concern. 

For those who are unfamiliar with her story. Eva Peron was the First Lady of Argentina from 1946 until she died in 1952. She was born into poverty in a small rural village of Los Toldos, the youngest of five children. She married Colonel Juan Peron in 1945, who was elected President of Argentina in 1946. During the next 6 years, Eva worked closely to provide help to those living in poverty, and to advance women’s rights. She founded the first female political party in Argentina. She received strong support in return for her caring and support from the Peron’s political base, low-income, and working-class Argentines, and was given the title of Spiritual Leader of the Nation. She passed away aged 33 years from cervical cancer. The sadness in Argentina at the loss of their First Lady was acute. The streets of Buenos Aires overflowed with mourners and flowers. Her life has since been immortalized in film, including the renowned ‘Evita’.

 

 

Channeling Robin Williams

I titled this video ‘Healing with Humour’. I’m not sure why Robin Williams came forward as a potential channel but I suspect it has something to do with keeping your thoughts elevated…the connection between our thoughts and our wellbeing.

I don’t do many of these sessions as they are exhausting and I have significant family and professional commitments, but when I do, I wait patiently – clairvoyantly – for the right inspiration. In this case Robin Williams came forward with a message on life and death, learning and suffering, self responsibility and non judgement.

I hope you get something from this video? I know I did. I know that not everybody will as there is a strong message on the right to die with dignity. I know that after posting this on my Patreon channel, a few unsubscribed. So be it. I have been around suffering and dying a lot in these last few years. Most recently my sister transitioning after 6 years of battling stage 4 cancer. My dear Nan passed sadly with dementia.

As we know, Robin Williams took his own life after battling with Lewy Body Dementia. He knew his prognosis; he was realistic about the progression of the disease. This channel makes it clear, it was absolutely what he wanted.

Around 9 years ago, in another lifetime, I researched dementia, consulting widely with the medical specialists, the carers and the non government organisations set up to manage dementia, for a publication designed to inform on dementia. A stand out finding was the severity of Lewy Body, a particular dementia type. With it, you can expect a progressive decline in mental abilities. “People with Lewy body dementia may experience visual hallucinations and changes in alertness and attention. Other effects include Parkinson’s disease-like signs and symptoms such as rigid muscles, slow movement and tremors,” the Mayo Clinic advises. This channelling session makes it clear that Robin Williams knew what he would experience, and how he would deteriorate and eventually die. For such a gifted intellect, comedian and actor, he chose to die with dignity.

This channeling is not for those who don’t agree that we have the right, in the face of terminal disease and suffering, to die with dignity. It’s for those who are listening closely to what is said in this video…that we don’t have the right to judge the response to extreme suffering that is experienced with terminal disease. Rather listening and non-judgement are demanded.

Beyond this message, Robin Williams had plenty to say on a range of things. Tapping into his energetic vibrations was a joy.  Irrepressible is the word that comes to mind when I think of Robin Williams.

 

How do I know what I see is real?

One of the wonderful things about ‘reading’ for someone is the validation that often occurs after the reading.

Often when I begin a reading and tune into the client’s energy, I receive a series of pictures/images which allow me to bring forward my clairvoyance. These pictures guide me toward the central reason/s the client has requested the reading – often it is the core of the problem that, once acknowledged, can help initiate progress or provide insight and reflection. At other times I will ‘hear’ words and phrases (clairaudience). At times, I see these words and phrases written on a notepad.

Of late, I am reflecting emotions which provide an indication of the issue that might be causing a problem, for example, the need to express or release something that is troubling or has been bottled up.

For many years, I received these pictures and felt the feelings, and didn’t know what to do with them. Mostly I kept it to myself or tried to explain it to help someone, or correct something. It wasn’t until I was diagnosed with cancer and underwent treatment that I strengthened my connection with spirit and understood, for the first time in my life, that I needed to use the gift I’d been given.

When my clients return with validation, I smile quietly to myself. I don’t linger on the good news as ego shouldn’t come into a connection with spirit. Rather, I try and remain humble and hope that the information I was privileged to impart; the guidance I hopefully provided, will be helpful.

I believe we all have these gifts, and that we know more than we realise. One of the ways to strengthen our intuition is to use it. So next time you’ve got that gut feeling, acknowledge it, use it and learn  to trust it.